Incentive Plan

It has been quite a few months since I've posted anything here! Either that or I've been caught in a time warp. Sometimes my life feels that way. Time twists itself inside out.

At my weekly weight loss group, we are talking about developing personal incentive plans and this is what I came up with: I have a special stash of money that I earn from singing. I use it for personal things, gifts for my husband, etc., instead of taking money out of our joint account. I will be giving $200 of this to a trusted friend, with a written promise to lose thirty pounds by our first meeting in January. If I do not, I must donate $100 to a charity of my choice. Then, after three more months, if I do not lose the rest of the thirty pounds, I must give the rest away to charity.

It sounds harsh, doesn't it? I've been so unmotivated I had to make it something I'd work for, and work hard. That is an average of five pounds a month for six months. I know I can do that. But will I? That is the burning question. I have a deep desire to do it.

Maintaining

Wow, it's hard for me to keep up with posting here. I have another blog, and I have a family and a life. We're doing spring cleaning and painting this week.

Last night at TOPS(Take Off Pounds Sensibly) I "turtled", which means I weighed to same as last week. Not good news, but not bad either. I'm eating okay...a little bit of something I shouldn't now and then...but basically I'm being good. I'm not walking like I should though.

Does anybody have any extra motivation they're not using right now, that I could borrow?

A New Responsiblity

A couple of weeks ago the leader of our TOPS weight loss group asked me if I would consider being the new leader, beginning April 1st. After asking questions and talking to hubby, I've decided I'm going to do it. I will have a co-leader, secretary, treasurer, and other members taking on certain tasks, so I think it's do-able. When she first asked me, I protested a bit, saying that I'm a fairly new member (end of July). She said I was enthusiastic and had made good progress, that she thought I'd be good. That was nice to hear.

I'm hoping it will be an extra little push of motivation to keep losing weight through exercise and healthy eating. If I'm the leader, I want to be a good example!

I've started walking again after slacking off for a while. Yay me!

Thursday Weigh In...Ummm

It's not happening today. I don't have a new battery for my scale yet so I can't weigh. My friend Tacie doesn't want to weigh and I totally understand that. I've been there...empty bag of Cheetos...cookie crumbs...receipt from a buffet restaurant... Look at that number between my feet the next morning? I don't think so.

It's goofy. Why do we think that NOT weighing is going to change anything? I guess we need to figure out if seeing bad news will discourage us and send us scrounging through the pantry for a box of Little Debbies, or whether we will be spurred on to better eating and exercise plans.

I did eat a few Hershey's kisses with almonds last night. A few. That's a change for me. I'm not too scared to weigh, but I can't. Convenient, eh?

Expanding Love Handles

Nooooo...this wasn't supposed to happen! That's what the perfectionist voices inside my head are shrieking at me. I gained a little bit...a half pound or a pound...and I haven't been walking consistently.

My eating habits over the weekend were less than stellar. Yeah. Let's just say I made intimate friends with a plate of nachos and buttery popcorn and some other junk. What is wrong with me? Where's my will power? Where's my motivation???

There's always an excuse lurking in the back of my brain. But it's Super Bowl Sunday. Everyone snacks during the Super Bowl. I think it would be easier if I were fighting, say, a substance abuse. Maybe not, but one part would be easier. I could avoid the alcohol or drug completely and be successful. You can't do that with food. You have to make peace with it and learn to nourish your body in a healthy way.

Why am I so weak?

HELP!!!!

Forget lutefisk--I'm being attacked by OATMEAL CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE DOUGH! It has invaded my kitchen! Send reinforcements!!!!!